srry if tht last entry confused some of you.. lots and lots of stuf has happened this weekend and its been crazy. i had a 2 choices and it was really hard at first.. but in the end im with tyler reeder.. i love him.. even if he doesnt love me.. i dont care.. i know i love him and thts all tht matters. eric im sorry.. even if you dont care about all this i really am sorry.. i thought it would work but in the end he could give me something you never could.. but hey im nothing special so if thts is part of ur whole shitty feeling xanga thing lately.. im truly sorry.. but really im nothing to get worked up about. this whole relationship with me and you isnt gonna work right now.. but i still want one of my best friends. if anything these last few weeks have shown me how much i miss being friends with you.. not just the say hey in teh hallway kind.. the kind where we actually have conversations.. i pretty much love you like you were my brother duuuuuuuuuude.. so ya i hope it can be normal again..

oh and another thing. ppl with stereo types.. should pretty much shut their mouths. ya know wht yes i do play softball.. but that doesnt mean im a lesbian. softball is just like any othr sport.. it requires skill and has nothing to do with how manly you are.. we might look more 'manly' i guess you could say but thats just becuz our sport you have to have muscle to do anything in it. take southwest for example.. aly fergeson.. one of the preppiest girls i know.. softball player.. sam newton.. had a boyfriend for like 2 years.. softball player.. and me? im a dancer, diver, swimmer, AND softball player. i like boys and just becuz i have muscles and actually like to play a sport rather than go shopping doesnt mean im a dike.. so next person who makes a joke about that or is serious about it.. well ur pretty much gonna die so SHUT UR PIE HOLE! kthnxbye

..:michaela:..

act like a retard, laugh like it's infamous,
dance endlessly, && i promise you, you're living the
life you always wanted to live; just never had. <3

There is no right timing, no right moments, no right guys;
Maybe sometimes you just have to follow your heart <3

sometimes i do silly things like bang into walls, or have some
serious blonde moments, but deep down inside, i`m just a
regular girl that`s looking for a real love..<3

if i could, i'd lay in bed with you from morning til night
& fall alseep in your loving arms,
knowing i'll  always be safe with you. <3

Think about the things that we had
The good times before they went bad
They're not gone just yet, it's all up to you
Think about the dreams in our heads
Laying awake, holding on in my bed
Why don't you make them come true
I still believe in you <3

Do you ever wonder if you had taken a left turn
instead of a right turn, you could have been somebody different? <3

oh my gosh i used to watch this show with my dad! hahaha!

Currently Listening Move Along By The All-American Rejects 11:11 see related

One more kiss could be the best thing
Or one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And your not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside
I know, I know
But all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows, who knows

but for what we've become
we just feel more alone
always weigh what i've got
against what i left
so progress report:
i am missing you to death

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin to do

i sometimes feel a little jealous inside
imagining someone else could please you
more than me i guess its my insecurity
acting up a bit because i know im not the
most beautiful most fun or even the most
exciting person you'll ever meet but i do
know that no matter how hard and
long you search you`ll never find
someone who loves you as much as i do

meh..

Currently Listening All That I've Got By Used see related

well this weekend has been interesting.. lets see friday night i had tyler over i cooked him food and i pretty much made my basement into a love nest for him! it was so romantic and perfect and wow i loved it. then saturday i went over to amanda's house at like.. 12.. and i got home at like..12! i spend 12 hours there and we wrked on a skool project for 8 of them! we went to the paper warehouse party place thing (amanda alli brad and me) and omg we dressed brad up in some funny stuf.. if ya wanna see it you should totally like ask me and i'll show u pics on my fone there sooooooooooo funny omg rofl. so ya 2day i went to church and then i have pratice till 3. then i think im gonna hang with tyler for a wee bit. then im gonna die my hair again. i feel like white trash its horrible. i hate my color now.. to tell the truth i liked it better when i was purple! ya so anywyz pretty much empty inside regardign everything except tyler softball and my guitar! so wht a great life OMG i love it haha not..

you didn't crush me darling ..
you completely destroyed me. <|3

[ex-boyfriends]
are like an old pair of shoes.
you know that you don't need them anymore
but you don't have the heart to get totally rid of them <3

the worst feeling
isn't being lonely.
it's being forgotten
by someone you could never forget. <|3

At my lowest moment you were there
to scoop me up in your arms and hug me
it was the most heartfelt hug i've ever experienced
&& i want to thank you for holding onto me
until I was ready to let go <3

The only thing better than the kiss itself is the moment right before it... When the look in his eyes could leave you breathless. <3

Saying I love you is a major decision in one's life.  Those words should be kept in your heart until you're ready to commit, to fight for that feeling, and stand by those words forever. <3

every guy is afraid of something. that's how you know he loves you when he is afraid of losing you <3

being together is more than just making out. it's about understanding the other person. being there for them, talking for hours ; making each other's dreams come true, being in love & not needing anything to keep it worthwhile <3

..:i'm caught in a trap of my own </3 like everybody i know:..

Currently Listening Wish You Were Here By Pink Floyd see related

why is it when im with you.. all my problems seem to float away along with that chip on my shoulder. and i dont care that im litterally laughing out loud rolling around on ur floor.. looking like a total dumbass.. snoochie boochies..

lets make this night
never-ending.. </3

everytime i talk to you i think of how much

im going to cry just at the thought of losing you

whenever i feel your touch..

i can't feel my body anymore

Currently Listening Wish You Were Here By Pink Floyd see related

why is it when im with you.. all my problems seem to float away along with that chip on my shoulder? and i dont care that im litterally laughing out loud rolling around on ur floor.. looking like a total dumbass.. snoochie boochies..

lets make this night
never-ending.. </3

everytime i talk to you i think of how much

im going to cry just at the thought of losing you

whenever i feel your touch..

i can't feel my body anymore